fill in the spiritual bubbles?

I've decided to boycott the Spiritual Transformation survey that the college wants me to take. Ok, so it's something of a weak, informal boycott and it's also because I'm reticent to dedicate 45 minutes to something other than homework, people, or sleeping at the moment. Who knows, maybe I'll take it yet; I'm a curious sort of person and the unknown is always alluring.

The truth is that I'm somewhat disturbed by the idea: a survey to measure spiritual growth. A valuable source of information for the college, I'm sure, but what do they intend to do with it? If students (those honest enough) say that they aren't growing here, would there be any change in how things are done? Maybe I've just grown too cynical.

It's just that I think my spiritual growth in the last four years is too...well..."big" for a survey. And by that I absolutely DON'T mean that I see myself as some spiritual giant (ha!). What I mean is that my "transforming" could maybe be captured in a conversation with a close friend or a poem or a personal essay--but filling in little scantron bubbles feels way too small and not nearly beautiful enough. I've read some of the questions on a friend's blog, and I think if I did take it, I might cry because the questions feel like the wrong ones and the answers like a foreign language that I knew only as a small child.

ha!

"Afternoons he roamed the October beach in writerly despair."

(Yes, I didn't explain it--I just read it in a book for my autobiographical writing class, and I thought it was both oddly funny and strangely applicable to my mood at the moment. Maybe my writing friends will also find it funny. Maybe not, but that's ok too.)