(Im)Patiently Waiting
Still working on my taxes...which is really frustrating when you have to file both in Minnesota and Wisconsin. One of my lifelong (well, not exactly lifelong of course) questions, aside from why grape-flavored things taste nothing like real grapes, and who ever figured out how to make cheese (thankfully they did somehow), is why did they make taxes so difficult? In my opinion there are little numbers which should go into little boxes...sounds simple right? Nope.
It doesn't help that I'm not the most patient person in the world--the future isn't now and boy does that bug me. I suppose we are all like that, waiting for the next big thing in our lives to happen, so we can move on and move forward. So in that sense I'm not unique from the whole wide world of impatient people. Lately though, I've been especially impatient. Life just changes so fast when you are in college--nothing seems to be constant: classes change like my hair color every semester (I'm TRYING not dye my hair again--it's cheaper!), I haven't lived in the same place for more than ten months of the year, I haven't lived at my parents' house for more than a month at a time, and relationships may or may not be there when the semester starts again. It's a little scary sometimes to think about the future and what might happen. Sometimes I long for some sort of stability. At the same time, I completely enjoy the spontaneity of my life--it certainly is the antithesis of boring.
I guess I'm really thinking about the importance of focusing on now. I can worry about the future so much that I forget to enjoy today--I forget to have joy today. God has given me this moment; I can chose to use it or spend it wondering how I am going to use the moments I don't have in my hands yet. And most often that's when I start to take them out of His.
It doesn't help that I'm not the most patient person in the world--the future isn't now and boy does that bug me. I suppose we are all like that, waiting for the next big thing in our lives to happen, so we can move on and move forward. So in that sense I'm not unique from the whole wide world of impatient people. Lately though, I've been especially impatient. Life just changes so fast when you are in college--nothing seems to be constant: classes change like my hair color every semester (I'm TRYING not dye my hair again--it's cheaper!), I haven't lived in the same place for more than ten months of the year, I haven't lived at my parents' house for more than a month at a time, and relationships may or may not be there when the semester starts again. It's a little scary sometimes to think about the future and what might happen. Sometimes I long for some sort of stability. At the same time, I completely enjoy the spontaneity of my life--it certainly is the antithesis of boring.
I guess I'm really thinking about the importance of focusing on now. I can worry about the future so much that I forget to enjoy today--I forget to have joy today. God has given me this moment; I can chose to use it or spend it wondering how I am going to use the moments I don't have in my hands yet. And most often that's when I start to take them out of His.
posted by Mandy at 12:14 AM
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How to live in the now: Picture yourself in an office cubicle... the phone rings, you answer it, you look something up. You repeat this 73-102 times before going home. Now, picture youself coming back in the morning and repeating the whole mess over and over again, day in and day out, for the next 31 years.
If, after that, you're not savoring your life, even the hard stuff... well... I can't help ya. :-)
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